Numbing Thoughts

But who am I?

"Alex has got his work"
"Alex lives for his work"
"Alex's in love with his work"
"Alex hides in his work"

From what?

From facing my failure,
Facing my loneliness, facing the fact I live a lie
I live a lie
I'm always been preaching not to be numb
I'm always in pretence to be happy and to lead a life
When I'm really detach from feeling alive

-- Adapted from RENT - The Musical

Lost In Haze

It starts with
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even mather how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down till the end of the day
Clock ticks life away

It's so unreal
You didn't look out below,
Watch the time go right out the window
Try'n to hold on
Didn't even know, I wasted it all
Just to watch you go
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried
It all fell apart
What its meant to be
Will, eventually be,
A memory of a time,
When I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter...
I had to fall, to loose it all...
But in the end, it doesn't even matter...

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even mather how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To remind myself
How I tried so hard...
Dispite the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end...

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to be, will
Eventually, be a memory of a time
When I tried so hard,
And got so far,
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall, to loose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far, as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust, in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know...
I tried so hard,
And got so far,
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall, to loose it all,
But in the end, it doesn't even matter

-- In The End by Linkin Park

Singapore Dreaming Comes True

Congratulations to Colin Goh and Woo Yen Yen for winning the tier 'A' Mont Blanc New Screen Writer's Award!! Take that Jack!!

A Singapore Dream comes true indeed.

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Breaking Down

The radio broke down...the news stopped
The CD player broke down...the music stopped
The microphone broke down...the recording stopped
The communication broke down...the action stopped

The whole world broke down...the passion stopped

My work is done...it's time for me to stop

What Are You Dreaming Of?

Singapore Dreaming...this must have been the best local film I've ever watched. Not that I know Colin Goh or Woo Yen Yen personally, or that I watch so many local films. However comparing to the J-Team flicks and some more cheem arty films...I was touched by the simple sincerity of the movie. Many times I was moved to tears. Ok, maybe I'm just being sentimental. But this is the first time I ever allow my tears to flow freely down my cheeks in the public cinema. So malu...

Besides the superbly written script of a typical Chinese Singaporean family, many a times you'll find somewhere in the movie, reflections of our daily lives. So real and so close to the heart. Kudos to the superb cast headed by ever so good uncle, Richard Low (刘谦益), Alice Lim (林倩萍), Serene Chen (陈惠玲 ), Dick Su (苏才忠), Lim Yu Beng (林友明) and last but not least a very impressive performance by Yeo Yann Yann (杨雁雁). I really would not miss a chance to watch this strong ensemble doing a class act in the cinema again.

Cleverly crafted lines (predominently in Hokkien, injected with proper English, crisp Chinese and the 'uniquely Singapore' Singlish) and thought provoking plots. What do we all want in our lives? What are we dreaming of? To be happy? To be rich? To lead a simple life with a close family bond? But yet we know that life is never easy in Singapore without the cash in hand. But is money the solution and the almighty in life? Well, we need it to bring bread to the table to feed the family and to lead a decent life? But what is a decent life? To have Cash, Card, Car, Condo and Club? Hence explain why we often wish we can strike it big in the lottery, buying 'hope' and wait to strike it rich instantly in this lifetime.

Are the 5C's really the answer to a good decent life? Perhaps afterall, we all eventually will end up in the 6th C, a Coffin. Hmm...life is so complicated. Well, like a friend who used to tell me, stress in self implemented. Indeed we created our own stress in life. But can Singaporeans really do away with chasing this dream to be in the upper crust? Like what it was said by the 'foreign talent' in the movie: "你們新加坡人就是這個樣, 整天埋怨, 你們的生活很苦嗎?"

But hey...Complaining is a afterall our favourite past-time, a Singaporean Culture... Haha...Singapore is like that one, mah lah ooh bian...

Singapore Dreaming is definitely a must watch for all 4 million smiling Singaporeans!!!

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The Object of My Affection

Finally caught the show on Star Movies (all thanks to cable). Touched...very touched by the show. Hmm...maybe I'm just feeling sentimental at the moment. But really liked the show. Have to give credits to Jennifer Anniston.

Some memorable quotes:

Nina (to George): I want you to be with me, I want you to marry me, I want you to love me the way that I love you.

Nina (to George): You have to pick one person in life and make it work.

Rodney (to Nina): One shouldn't be too hard on oneself when the object of one's affection returns the favor with rather less enthusiasm than one might have hoped.

Human relationship are just so complicated but yet can be so uncomplicated if one can see and take things easy and in stride. Lives will be so much easier.

Do I...

Do I have the courage to let go?
Do I have the courage to be free?
Do I have the courage to walk out the door?
Do I have the courage to make the choice?

Do I...

Do I have the right to be happy?